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Jun. 4th, 2005 @ 06:40 pm
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Just foward all post and go to my Xanga now www.xanga.com/surelog
Also my website which isn't completely done.
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WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
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» Body:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] Have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Have we kissed?
[13] Would you make love to me?
[14] Are we close?
[15] Emotionally, what stands out?
[16] Do you wish I was cooler?
[17] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[18] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[19] Am I lovable?
[20] How long have you known me?
[21] Describe me in one word.
[22] What was your first impression?
[23] Do you still think that way about me now?
[24] What do you think my weakness is?
[25] Do you think I'll get married?
[26] What about me makes you happy?
[27] What about me makes you sad?
[28] What reminds you of me?
[29] What's something you would change about me?
[30] How well do you know me?
[31] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[32] Do you think I would ever kill someone?
[33] Do you ever think about me? How often?
[34] On a scale of 1-10 how "hot” do you think I am?
[35]Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? (I’ll do it, just let me know if you post it)
Put an X in the () for each you would do for me:
() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() let me kiss you?
() watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
() let me take you out to dinner?
() take a shower with me?
() be my bf/gf?
() have a fling with me?
() Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a drink like a sobe or soda?
() take me home for the night?
() Would you let me sleep in your bed?
() Sing car kareoke w/ me?
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() give me oral?
() Let me give you a piggyback ride?
() Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? |
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Life at the Barracks is different from anything. WE have all sorts of mixture of people living her, different races, backgrounds and hobbies. We have Hackers, we have Gamers, we have fighters, we have partiers, we have everything.
Corpral Bandith aka Bandit. This man is the hacker and my personal hacker for anything. He can get and do anything with his computer and gear. I've seen him tear an Xbox apart, sodder all these parts into it, and now it's a home theater with movies, games, DVD burner, Stepmania, and everything. He's always on his computer downloading some new devices or software for hardware he pretty much created on his own.
Dart - Dart is the guy who's eating all the time and in good shape. He talks to me every time we go to the gym and pushes me, he says that if I work hard out in the gym my run scores will get faster. He's a good fighter too but I'm better.. I just don't tell him that because he's pretty big guy and he doesn't need to know anything about my past haha. I know I could beat him despite how big he is. All his muscles seem to slow him down I think. He's a really good guy though, he has a ex-wife and a kid he's trying to fight her over. His kid is awesome and he's an awesome dad. his wife cheated on him and pretty much told him to fuck off and that was pretty much it... sad. He moved to the east coast kind of like me to see her and well then shot down (bang!).
Leon - He can dance really good, in fact he's a break dancer, and he tries to teach me a lot. I can dance fine on my own but I'll look stupid dancing next to this guy. He really likes DDR too despite that it's not really dancing. he's also a pretty big gamer in general but he's making sure I hit the clubs out in South Carolina (away from all the Marines so I don't need to fight over a girl).
Corpral Jone aka Mike Jones (the rapper) - This is my co-worker/partner, he knows bombs. and what he doesn't know about bombs he learns. This guy is awesome, he is 23 years old and has a pretty hot girlfriend (I joked and asked if she had a sister). He's really cool and he's going to teach me everything I need to know about ordnance (bombs, missles, ammo, guns) for the 53's and Fix Wing Aircraft (F-18's, etc).
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I went drinking agian last night but I'm gonna try and not do it again. it's hard not to sometimes especialy after the Karen thing. When you lose a pretty big part of your heart she still has and wont give back you tend to look aways to make the pain stop. Normaly I try and make it stop by talking to other girls, playing video games, and working hard at work, which sometimes works but not long. Drinking, like Video games and talking to other girls isn't much better. It makes you feel good (sometimes a lil sick in my case) and then it's gone after a lil while. I actually got drunk this time, I was just hanging out with some buddies and I knew they wouldn't let anything bad happen to me and there were no girls to make myself look stupid in front of this time. So I slammed 6 of these drinks corpal got me that actually tasted really really good! in fact I kind of wish I could just drink them whenever because they actually taste really good. I kept saying I wasn't drunk but they said I was. When I finally passed out they said I was mummbling something in my sleep that was really sad. I remember everything fromlast night though. I remember walking was like an adventure.... you moved forward and the bricks flew backwards like darts. it was interesting and I couldn't stand up very well either, it was kind of fun and kinf of a challenge. But then morning hits, and like every morning that missing of a special girl comes back up and i have to work throughout the day to ease the pain again.
It's old school music day at the barracks today or something though... hearing a lot of good old school music. |
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May. 10th, 2005 @ 10:13 am
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I think I'm gonna ust keep this journal up for thoughts and anything I think is kind of bad, and keep my xanga for clean good stuff, and what's going on.
I have some crazy dreams sometimes, last night's was awesome but I wsa pissed when I woke up to see it was 5:45. basicly It was the type of dream I use to run from as a kid but this time it was a lot cooler. Some Zombies were coming at me and I freaked out cus I was cornered and it was so dark so I just started to beat the shit out of them with my flash light... I ran down a hall once I killed them and saw another one running for me so I ran to a room I knew had some marines in it... and slammed the door yelling for them to wake up while the zomebie was now trying to get through the door. Then I turn around with my flash light and they turn into Zombies... I can't run so I beat the crap out of one in the face, nail the other with a flash light and kick the head off the other one. it was... interesting I guess.
Karen and I decided not to be friends, I feel it's best too. it hurts but I like it this way because I don't know her... she said she wasn't being herself and that must mean she isn't the girl I know. She seems like she wants to relax and have fun and that's all good but I know how she wants to. it's kind of sick I guess too since she made out and almost fooled around with some dude so soon after we broke up so that's defently not my kind of girl. I once asked her what kind of girl she would be if we wern't together and she said she'd prolly be kissing a lot more guys and drinking. and not really even a week after breaking up with me that's pretty much what she did, fooled around with dan making out and what not... that's pretty sick. that's just gross so I'm really falling less and less attracted to her which makes things a lot easier. I feel she believes she's super hot shit, and I guess I hate that kind of thing in girls. The more she does the more I relize that I don't want her. I want the karen I fell in love with back in the summer, but she's wayyy gone.. Come this 19th woulda been our one year mark. I suppose finally being let to her own she wants to experience a lot of things and well from the sounds of it a lot of guys from what I grasp. It still stings cus I thought she loved me but I look back and a lot of things seem to be lies and it's pretty easy to get over when you look as what kind of girl she probably is. I donno maybe she won't turn out so bad later on but it sounds like that's what she wants.
I got drunk a lil while ago... first time drinking self willingly. Shane and Corpral told me I should try it. I always asked why you can't have fun with out alcohol and they told me I must not have enough problems in my life... I told them they don't know much apparently. I drank, and I guess I see what it was like. your problems go away, temporary. I guess I see why my mom gets plastard all the time, especialy after dad cheated on her. But It's only temporarly, and it's still gross. there were a lot of girls in the barracks... girlfriends, and friends of girlfriends, if my mind set was to try and get laid it would have been pretty easy, but I just talked to girls insted, building my confidence back up after a broken heart. But I felt really sick... another thing is I can't stand seeing girls get plastard and throwing up and stuff... I've seen a lot of it. For a guy I really can't hold my alcohol. only 2-3 shots into the drinking and I was already feeling dizzy and the world started to spin a little.
The fleet is a lot different. WE PT on our own... like Gunny told meto go work out and... I did, sometimes I just go back to the barracks and chill. it's alot more relaxed. We can have alcohol in our barracks, we can have girls in our barracks (I was kinda excited about that but it's not a big deal), we wake up, go to work, and only serve duty once a month as to once a week. Even duty is easy but it's 24 hours. but we can play video games, watch tv, and whatever while on duty. even sleep as long as we answer the phone.
I guess the more I quit caring the more I'm thinking more into air crew. I'm not really afraid of getting hurt and I do want to see action. I'm not killing people, I'm protecting us, and I'm eliminating the enemy trying to kill me. That was a hard thing to grasp for me but it's part of the mind wasshing to help so people don't die anymore., |
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May. 9th, 2005 @ 03:12 pm
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Guess this is my site of thoughts while my Xanga is my site of what's going on in my life. I donno, I'll prolly switch between the too. I'm doing pretty good I heared this song on the radio though and I really like it... It's not exactly how I feel now but it's how I use to really feel about her. I think it's pretty smooth but I feel better off now though I guess.
Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll
Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to come home, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll
Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely
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I don't feel so lonely really, but it's kind of hard to fill the pieces she took from me I guess, and you can only break a heart so many times. it's best we don't talk ever again because well it makes it a little easier on me knowing she's not gonna break me anymore. I am breakable but I'm still pretty strong guy. |
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Will update soon. Get internet in room this Saturday.
May. 3rd, 2005 @ 12:53 pm
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I love California. Women are beautiful, Wheather is gorgeous, things are expensive... and you never have to go to a Car show... the Car show is on the streets... everyone has a nice car, and I love the beach.
I talked to Joann again. She likes me talking to her which is kind of nice wanting to be talked to her. I told her how Karen was Chinese, and she kind of understood why I'd have a tough time being with a asian girl again even though she's also half white. She listens to me a lot but it always feels like she's trying to get me to forget Karen just so I'll come chill with her. My buddy doesn't know what my problem is. He had a girlfriend of 6 years who broke up with him and he said it's the best thing to do, especialy since he thinks she's so pretty too. But as much as I'd like to think I'm shallow and can like a girl just cus she's good looking, it's like I can feel what Joann is trying to do to me, and I donno, maybe I don't like it, or maybe I just feel something for K.C. Either way though, talking to Joann helps me sleep a little better, and she is kind of a good girl and stuff but I just Miss K.C's personality I guess. It's kind of hard to think like that though since K.C. is already moving on. but since she has I told Joann I'd go out with her Wednesday, see how things go. So we're going to some nice resturant but I don't think I'm totally ready yet. Though I do have to admit... it's kind of cool cus this girl really likes me I think but she has a dad who is a Gaunary Sargent... so she doesn't just like me because I'm a Marine, she likes me for me. I donno if I'll find a girl who will wait for me. Karen always promised me she would, but well she didn't wait for me, so I guess Joann makes me feel like there is a girl who will wait for you, I just hope she doesn't expect a lot of money from me or anything haha, but I donno maybe I should let someone else touch my arm, but I always made that reserved for one girl, so it's kind of wierd ya know? sometimes girls just see a guy in uniform and they're like oh so pretty. yea it's gay like that.
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on another Note, I got my Pro's and Con's for my university of Ordance Scores. Basicly they're my scores as a Marine to show how good of a Marine I am. On average it's 4.0/4.0 and I scored a 4.2/4.3. I was really happy. Sargent said "You're a Good Marine, who does what he is told without question, you know who you're talking to and speak in the up most respect and profesionalism" I felt pretty good from that and it really made my day. To be called a "Good Marine" by a higher ranked Marine such as a Sargent was said to be "A very big honor" by my Sernior drill Instructor back in Bootcamp. To be called a Good Man or Good Marine is a really big honor indeed and sargent said "Hunter, you're going to do very good out there in the fleet". Sargent Philips is like my Big brother. He's stronger, and smarter than me, and he picks and beats up on me a lot (I got a lot of bruises). He did ask me to show him some of my Martial Arts training once and he was impressed but he's a lot bigger than me. He's really like my big bro, and I'm gonna miss him a lot. even all the bruises and beatings he gave me when we wrestled around and did Ground Combat Training... but I got to admit I still choked him out hahahahhah... ok yea I choked him out once, but he pinned me time and time again after that =/.
I ran my PFT today. Three Miles of running... I was behind Hart, Banda, and Demar for most of the run.. but right around the 2 mile mark I slowly passed Hart who was quite a bit ahead of me. it felt good... as I ran through my pain and ran past him. Then I ran past demar and banda... who were quite a bit ahead of Hart... I sprinted as Banda tried to catch up, then I slowed down when he gave up... then about .3 miles away Demar tried to catch up... and I dead out sprinted... with all of my heart... tears in my eyes, and no stopping... my breathing couldn't catch up with my blood and I started to lose oxygen as I ran harder and faster than I ever had before... Demar tried to catch up but then I heared "Fuck it" as he couldn't... I kept running, my eyes rolled back and I wasn't even breathing anymore... just as I was about to pass out I heared "Finish".... I didn't just beat them, I blew them away. it was awesome.
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I'm coming home for the weekend like I said though... i might meet up with Karen but I donno, it might be too painful even considering how fast she moved on to other guys already. So I donno. I kind of want to... be her prince again, but then it's like well she couldn't wait for me... so I donno, maybe she still wants a prince, but then.. maybe she's already found another one. I can never tell.
However this means I can get my computer~!! and bring it back down to base with me so I can constantly keep in touch with my friends and play video games and watch cartoons on my computer! Swing! yes, I'm still a Kid... I'm just a kid who plays with guns, bombs, and wears a uniform now. I'll never be totally grown up... only when I'm on a real classy date, or working... every other time I get to be a kid and that's how I'll always be.
I don't want to grow up, I never did like that idea... because being a kid is such more fun.
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My buddy Demar told me to go up to these girls and play my card tricks out to them at theater. I totally pussied out so I saw a little kid and was said "Hey see this card? (it disapears in my hand) up where did it go?? and the little girl laughed, and I made it reappear... then the girls saw it and I played the trick out a few more times and they talked to us. It was pretty slick but really funny because it's such an easy trick, but your mind does that. I've been playing around with my deck of cards again for the past couple weeks and getting good at old tricks. And it's always fun to impress girls (even though I went directly to the movie after that, I didn't even try for their numbers or anything heh)
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On top of all this I get to go back to my favorite thing of all time... Martial Arts. There is a Taekwondo School up in N.C. I can go to, plus a Jujitsu school perhaps too. But I've already done Tai-Chi Yang Style, Hochime, and Taekwondo, and Marine Corp. Martial Arts Program(McMap) I donno if I really want another Martial Arts, so I think I'll just stick to the Taekwondo for Now.
I really really miss competing. I'm really happy though, Mr. Craven said I have a gaunteed Job as a Taekwondo Instructor when I get out of the Marine Corp. He was really seriouse, said I could maybe 300-400 extra bucks a week!
I finally got things really planned out. I'm gonna take some schooling in Law, Health, and Fire Fighting while in the Marines... Then when out I might take some more schooling with my GI Bill. My cousin said I'd be a shoe in already as a police Officer... I told him I want to be a Fire Fighter but with how hard it is to get a job as a Fire Fighter I might want to be a cop... as long as I get to help protect people and do a job where I'm helping people... not just myself. my cousin said that would be a great idea since not only would I make good money (plus all the side money of a Takwondo instructor), but it would also account into my retirement... I could retire at the age of 38, then open up my own business... I would literaly be able to travel anywhere in the world and I'd be pretty wealthy... it sounds like an awesome deal... I'm not a man of money, I'm telling you now. Sometimes I think K.C. had a problem with that... I'm a man of principle who likes to help people and do things for a better cause... I'd like to know I died and my life ment more than just how many bills where in my bank... but in this case I get to have both.... help people and make pretty good money. Plus Taekwondo will keep my in shape. Hopefully I can get my second Degree black belt by the end of Next Year if I'm able to go enough... but wait shit, I gotta go to Iraq and fight... well, whichever happens first.
"Wow from here it looks like you have really big arms Hunter" - Viet.
haha yea douche, you don't know how strong I am untill it's sleeves up (the day we roll our sleeves on our cammies up)
Apr. 26th, 2005 @ 07:28 pm
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I spend way too much time with my Taxi Driver. She's cool as hell though. Last night she drove us out to this club near USC. It was alright, I figured it was good way to relieve some stress, but then this morning I wake up and what do I do? Call my Cab driver and she invited us to go Kyacking with her, so we all went Kyacking early this morning. it was nice and a good work out, and now I'm a little burned, but my farmer's tan still blows the rest of my skin out of the water.
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I talked to her last night. I donno whats going on my mind. The only time she ever misses me is when she's not going out with all her guy friends and is back at the apartment alone. That's not missing me, that's just feeling lonely. If she was with other people she'd never even give a thought about me, so it only makes me kind of mad to have her tell me she misses me when I know in all actuality she doesn't really miss me... She's just alone for the night because she can't go out or all her friends are busy.
Another thing is I did see those pictures I was talking about with her and Dan. Not the one of her and her dress... the one Dan had posted up, his arms wrapped around her, and she was so happy, and in her little tank top. That's kinda messed up my buddy said and I totally agree. It looks like they were on a date or something together. She tried her best to kind of avoid any comment on that picture and she never gave me a direct answer, which is why I think she is way to sketchy of a person. And yes I do have a hard time believe she really misses me.
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Wu talked to me last night since he was the one who organized the whole going to the club thing. asked me how I was feeling, and we just talked. He's good people he is.
I started packing and cleaning up... getting ready to move on again to my next and final duty place... North Carolina. They got a nice beach a couple hours away I defently plan to visit. and I got a decent car I'm going to buy here soon. a 95 Camery... it's relatively cheap and it'll hold me over untill I buy a little bit of a nicer car later on, plus it'll hold me over while I save money to get a newer computer for my room. It sounds like I'll be in a two or even a one man room! my boys that are already out in N.C. are already jealous. I hear I'll be firing my Rifle a lot more when I get there to get my rifle scores up since I'm gonna be firing a bit when in Iraq when on FARP's (Fueling And Reloading Points).
I went into the barracks and told a buddy of mine
"Dude I found the dog I want, a Toy Chiwawa"
He laughed his ass off and said "You're such a faggot man, I'm thinking big man dog, like a Lab, or something like a Bull Dog and you tell me a Toy Chiwawa"
I thought about it... and yea it's kinda funny, in a since of what people would think 'Big bad marine' wants a 'toy chiwawa' but hey I can't help it. that thing is cool as hell. I already got it all planned out and everything, I'll get like a really big cage for him... and when I'm not home he can live in the massive cage with lots of stuff in it to play with, food and water... it be like a big amusment park when I go to work for him to play in untill I got back because he's so small. I wanted a Golden Retriever bause K.C. wanted to share that dream with me, and since I want to be apart of her dreams we both would make sacrafices... and I'll sacrafice the toy chiwawa for a Golden Retriever... since I'm a big guy I don't need a big dog to take care of me, but she's a small girl so she wanted a big dog to take care of her when I was away... but well guess that doesn't matter anymore, so I'm getting a toy chiwawa hahaha, thing freakin rules. Either way though I like dogs a lot, big or small, but small dog would be kinda nice to have when I got home.
I'm so confused on what I'm gonna do here... I need a car, and I need a better computer... so I'm saving and working tweaks out to finance and work out so I can get both. For the time being I'm gonna get my old computer down to N.C. with me and get a web cam so I can talk to my friends and they can see me, and a Mic so I can talk to them using online vocal programs.
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I can't stand having hard on my face but I hate shaving... now don't get me wrong cus I shave every day except on weekend some times... but I noticed that I love to let me face grow out and then shave after a day of not shaving.... it makes me skin feel soooo smooth and softer when I skip a day of shaving and then shave again. yea that's kinda gross I guess but hey I just type wtf ever I'm thinking.
We'll see how it goes!
Apr. 24th, 2005 @ 03:06 pm
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I thought a lot about the way I acted lately... kinda pissed at myself but at the same time kinda pissed at her still, or really pissed off. Lets just look at the facts, and hmmm now I might understand why I'm so mad...
She tells me she loves me, she doesn't want to lose me, she doesn't want a break because "I love you" she says. She's asking to grow old, and get a Golden Retriever with me, saying she doesn't want anyone else, and how she wants a "promise ring".... 3-4 days later.
"I can't handle a commiment, I don't want a long distance relationship"
"I am sorry I'm just stressed out and need to be free"
"I'm sorry I don't think you've changed"
ok, ya know sure I would understand where you were coming from I guess... I mean kind of cold but how am I suppose to trust you now? I was working on it ya know, I really started to get happier and not care... but You had to be doing something... You had to be doing something karen, something really sketchy at least. Yes I saw pictures I wasn't suppose to see... pictures of you and Dan together even while you were with me. What's amazing is how you would never post a picture of you and me together on your facebook but not even a week after you dumped me you got a picture of you and Dan together... I absolutly refuse to believe anything else, you could never make any since of it. I still think you're a horrible woman, really horrible, I never want to see you again. You did lie to me, and you lied a lot. You shot me down real bad. You could never respond to anything I just said that would make since. I can sleep now, but I only wake up in the middle of the night not mising you anymore, but pissed at myself for letting myself get put into that position, falling in love with you, I can't believe I did it. For once I thought everything was good, and okay. But now it seem like I should had never even givin a chance to you, I should have cheated on you. I'm pissed at how loyal I was to you, I never ever touched another girl, I wouldn't even look at other girls, but you were already thinking about being with other guys, and not even a week later you were not "Dating" or anything, you were in a full blown relationship with the guy who took you to install, I'm so glad I could trust you huh? That's just really poor taste miss.
And I still hurt, I still love her, I really still love her. I'm so angry at myself saying the things I said, but I don't know if any sain human being would take it back. I don't know if I miss her or just miss having a girlfriend, but I do know that what she did was probably smart if she was wanting to get me to get back on track and believing her (which is what I thought the deal was) but it was in fact that she wanted to be with other guys... "I have a boyfriend but I don't have a boyfriend". It was just a straight forward thrust into the heart. To tell me you love me and want no break, to dumping me in a matter of 3 days over which once again I thought was to try and straighten me out, but in the end was really as I just said you wanting to be with other guys so quickly. That's the stab on things.
But it makes things easier as now I feel I better know what kind of women you are... you were never waiting for me, you were just using me for security untill you could move onto the next guy.
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I got a haircut today and I went to this nice barbershop with cute girls, and one of the girls has this freakin awesome puppy that I am now going to get when I get out of the marines and live on my own. It's a Toy Chiwawa (think I slaughtered the spelling on it) it's sooooo small and cute that I must have one. He would be perfect for me because I could let him out when I'm home and play with him and teach him tricks, and then when I'm gone I could buy a really big cage and put food and water and play stuff in there for him, it would be like a small amusment part for him because the cage is so big for him cus he's so tiny. I love dogs, and petting and playing wit that Dog really helped me a lot.
The Aviation Ordance Birthday Party was yesterday, it's my MOS (Military Ocupation Speciality) a.k.a Job in the Marine. Anyway I went to it and it was pretty awesome. Sargent got me a Yellow wrist band, and that means I could drink alcohol if wanted to... So I did, I tryed to drink a little to see if I could jus get myself to feel better, but I then looked at it and I was like "I'm not this weak" and I gave it to a buddy who loves beer. I hate weakness, to women, to money, to even peer preasure cus everyone else is doing it "Cough cough". The party was pretty amazing though, my buddy brought his cousin, he was telling me I should try and meet her and see what I think of her. Well my buddy name is Wu, he's half Chinese and Half Korean. I talked to him and I was like "Dog I donno man, I don't think I want to see another asian again man" though that's kind of hard because half of California is Asian, ad the other Half is Mexian. Anyway he told me he understand but she was right over there (by the food) if I wanted to talk to her. I then proceeded to tell him "Especialy not korean girls man, every korean girl I've met has been a little crazy and I don't think I could handle that man. I just need time". I know that might sound a little raciest, I'm not saying I could never date a Korean girl I'm just saying I just got out of a relationship and I don't want anything too crazy. Anyway later that night he told her to go see me and say HI (which I found out later). I guess I looked kinda decent cus I was wearing almost everything Karen Got me, plus the cologne, but not decent enough for this girl. She's half Korean Half white, I was amazed how pretty she was. She said "Hunter?" and that was when I saw her "My name is Joann". I didn't know what to say really so I told her ya that's me. We talked and talked, I talked to her and eventually told her every detail. I told her everything that's happened to me in the past year in roughly 2 and a half hours. Everything from Tim, to What Karen and I did together, to my overwealming jealousy and everything I did wrong, why, and to what happened recently. She seemed pretty cool about everything. Wu was spying on me the whole time and I was just sitting there alone next to the lake with her. She told me how she got out of a relationship with a really possesive boyfriend, but yet she knew why I acted the way I did. She said her dad was a Gunary Sargent in the Marines and she was going to be moving to North Carolina in a month (No wonder wu wanted me to talk to her because that's where I'm moving soon~). I told her about Taekwondo and how I know a little Korean and Cantonese. She seemed to know both Korean and Cantonese cus I told her what I knew in Cantonese from K.C. and she said it was cute and she understood my Korean too but she said that my Korean was not proper and I had too much of an american accent or something like that because I was saying everything improperly.
Anyway we sat there a little while by the lake (the party was outside) and I pulled out some cards, something I never told Karen about is I know a lot of Card Tricks. I played some really simple card tricks, flick of the wrist, now you see it, now you don't kind of stuff. She liked them a lot, and then I told her it seemed a lot like the video game "The Sims" where you talk to people in the game and show little tricks and try to get the person you're talking to in the video game to be your friend. She laughed cus she said she'd played the game before and she always tried to get them into relationships in the game and get people into big fights, and then she said "I always have them flirt like.." and then she kissed me on the cheek.
And for once everything seemed awesome, right and perfect again. high as a kite I relized maybe I'm not that bad of a guy, but then... I fell down again when she tried to kiss me again.
"I'm sorry, you're soooo pretty don't get me wrong, but I just can't do it right now." and I guess I shot down her Ego or something but she said it was okay and that she needs to go get some food anyway cus she was starving. Later on she kept hanging out with me especialy while I played ordance games (500 pound bomb drag with 2 other guys, Football with a Bomb painted onto the foodball, and Low crawl races). And later that night we left, and right before I left I kinda said nothing to Joann, I just kinda left but Wu told me her number and said I should maybe call her. I havn't called her yet but I really don't think I want to right now, I don't know... maybe when I'm in N.C. but I'm still strung up on Karen and I'm sadly like a dumb dog still in love despite that I hate her at the same time.
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I did however feel a lot better that night, I guess there are other girls but I'm too afraid I guess. I really really really, with all my heart and I swear it to God thought Karen was the one for me, like I'd never been so sure of anything in my entire life. I don't want to be like that again.
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Another story... I got back to the barracks and my buddy Private Trelute got in... He was TOTALLY Wasted, TOTALLY straight up drunk like I've never seen before. aparently he had taken some crazy shots of some crazy alcohol and was all screwed up. Anyway he came in around 2300 (11pm) and we would have a online rack check from the SDO in charge... which meas We all stand next to our racks (beds) with our Military ID cards and the Sargent or Staff Sargent would come by and check us off and let us go to sleep... Well I'm totally exhuasted from the party (500 pounds is a lot of weight to drag, and then football), and can't wait to get to sleep... my eyes are blood shot from lack of sleep when he tells me I can finally go to sleep.... Well then the SGO gets to PVT Trelute when all of a sudden I hear from the SDO
"GET UP! GET THE FUCK UP RIGHT NOW, FUCKING GET UP RIGHT FUCKING NOW!!!!" The SDO was screaming his head off, he was getting straight up crazy, I thought he was going to honost to God kill Trelute. "
Finally after shaking Trelute for awhile and screaming his head off Trelute wakes up
"What the fuck is your problem Dog? leave me alone I'm trying to sleep"
Holy shit... when I heared ow disrespectful he was being to the SDO I got out of my rack to make sure the SDO wasn't going to choke him
"Are you so fucking drunk you can't get your ID Card out and wake the fuck up? You're so fucking trashed, do yu know who the fuck your talking to?" -SDO
"No as a matter of fact I don't Dog-" Tre
"I'm Sargent so and So, get the fuck up and get me your ID right fucking now"
"What the fuck ever Dog, I don't know where it's at"
Holy crap.... Then I heared a slam as the SDO took Trelute by the arm and slammed him into the wall locker. Trelute was so trashed I was scared shitless because I didn't wat him to get himself in anymore trouble... he already lost his Rank "PFC" in pensacola for doing something stupid, now he was gonna get half his pay taken away and possible thrown in the Brig (Military Jail) for fucking up again~!
The night goes on and on ad Tre finally gets his ID out and what not, gets an ass chewing... and now today he's cleaning all day and then gets off at 2200 (10pm) and then has post from Balls to 6 (12am-6am). I told him he should cound his blessing that he didn't get his ass kicked or in any serious trouble.
---Alright that's it, I still want a toy chiwawa and I'm going out again tonight and eating lots of ice cream, going to club with my friends (last weekend in California =,( ), and then going to probably stay up all night watching DVD's and Cartoons.
"Now you see me now you don't"
"I looked away from you and Dreamed"
I just wish she was the same girl I fell in love with.
Apr. 23rd, 2005 @ 03:14 pm
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Yes, again... once again. Except things were different I loved this girl... and thought she loved me too ya know? but she didn't... she is just another bitch you can't trust. I never loved a girl so much in my life but she is with another guy after only a week and a half of being done with me... and to top it off there are pictures of her and her new man together. I actually loved her, and well she really convinced me she loved me too. Maybe I never really new her. I'm just amazed I guess, that even right when I was thinking I could trust her... I was always never able to trust her... she was doing this stuff the whole time. and I know she's been lieing to me... I can't believe how in love with her I was. I wanted to take care of her and I always look forward to going home... but now... I never want to go home. I want to go to Iraq. I'm joining the first MEU (Marine Expendary Unit) I can and I'm gonna go take my aggression out in the sweltering heat. No women needed, especialy not a lieing bitch. She's so pretty, I honostly thought the best of her, I honostly thought things were going to work out. But I'm just utterly amazed... that's why she broke up with me so quick... that's why she didn't want a committment with me so suddenly... because she was fucking around with some other guy. I hope she chokes. I've never been so hurt in my life, but at the same time all her lies and deceptions make sense. I hope I get shot and die before I see her again. And I bet she's happy with herself... much like when she broke Tim's heart and laughed, she's probably laughing right now, being so happy with herself. I don't want to trust women ever again.
Apr. 21st, 2005 @ 06:10 pm
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I donno why I never added this, but Boot Camp had a lot of interesting stories.
Bootcamp:
~~~During the first week I was in bootcamp I had 10 seconds to get my warrior gear on (my kevlar, rifle, and H-harness), well I was throwing the gear on but my H-harness was too small! I freaked out trying to fix it to fit me when my fingers kept jamming trying to fix it. I stood there... the last and only one who couldn't get it on. The drill instructer comes running full speed to get my face
"GET IT ON!!!! PUT THE FUCKING THING ON RIGHT NOW HUNTER!!! I'm GOing TO KILL YOU, DO YOU UNDERSTAND? KILL YOU HUNTER, GET IT ON RIGHT FCKING NOW"
I started to shake as my hands still could't adjust the thing... the Senior Drill Instructor yelled and told the Drill instructor yelling at me to go away.... finally I got the thing on...
What had happened was the drill instructor had switched my H-harness gear with Another recruit... recruit wolf, who was quite a bit smaller than me... later as I was about to graduate, I put on his gear to show how much weight I lost and how happy I'd never have that problem again.
~~~Swim Qual, week 4.
I was standing in line... shaking with a little bit of anticipation... wondering what's going to happen.... I've got old raggy used cammies on, kevlar helmet, flak jacket, TWO alice back packs, h-harness, a M16 Rifle, and one boot the size of a woman's foot, with my left foot crammed into it with the lace tied around my ankle in hopes it doesn't leave my foot, and another boot the size of a large ogre's foot. with my right foot sliding around inside it. before I know it... I'm in the water... swimming... I jumped off the ledge with all this gear... while I'm swimming I notice my vision fill with water... trying to fight it I keep pushing foward with my legs... I see a woman... she screams at me to get my nasty eyes off of her, I say "Aye ma'waglug" and keep pushing foward. I hear screaming under the muffle of the water, telling me to keep moving... I gasp for breath but as I gasp, a Drill instructor slams his foot onto my head and my head goes under... I keep swimming, pushing harder, I finally get a gasp for air when another drill instructor throw water at my face, forcing me to cough water. Finally I make it to the end though.... both packs still there, but I lost a boot..
I'll add more later.
Apr. 17th, 2005 @ 06:00 pm
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I love California!!! If it wasn't for Karen and my family I'd want to stay in Cali forever? Why?! Everything is awesome about Cali. The clubs are fun out here, the food is awesome, the wheather is amazing! I think one day I want to move to Cali and live here. But here are some stories, I've experienced.
Actually two are from Staff Pro events. These events are typically concerts we (marines) go to, to provide support in case people get out of hand or what not. typically they put the marines are crowd control while the college kids who sign up to do the same thing typically just take tickets up. One time I was talking to these asian girls (there are a ton of Asian girls out here). She asked me if I had a girlfriend, and I told her yes back in kentucky. She then asked why I joined the Marines if I had someone who loved me back at home. I told her (yes as corny as this sounds) that I joined the marines so I could protect my girlfriend so she could sleep peacefully at night.
Another story at another staff pro, the next day was I was just standing at my post. when a girl came up and asked me what the Green flag ment in the race we were providing security at. I'd been at the post kind of alone for awhile so I didn't mind talking to some company. I told her is ment 3 laps were left of the race. she left and later came back and started to talk to me. I talked about how cool Long Beach was and I'd never been there, how I was from kentucky. Then my staff sargent, and Sargent came up and started to talk to me making sure everything was okay. I told them I was all good, and happy. They asked me who the girl was, and I just told them she was just keeping me company, talking to me.
They told me "Get her number!"
I said "Heh, nah staff sargent, Im not that kind of guy, I've got a woman"
They then walked away and staff sargent took a good look at the girl to see if she was good looking.
Then Staff Sargent yells "What's your problem Hunter?!"
I said "I'm hungry staff sargent!"
Staff Sargent looks and nods that girl and says "I'm hungry too!"
then I laugh and they leave. the girl comes back and talks to me a lil more. I ask what there is to do in California... she ask me if I had a girlfriend.
Me"Yes, I do"
Her "Oh... well there are clubs but I have parties a lot..."
me "ah hah, well I don't think my girlfriend would like that too much"
Then she says she's gonna leave to go look for crashes (shes not very bright), later she comes back and tells me she's gonna head back home... she waits, and I say "Oh hold on" since I was talking to another customer.... then she waits... and I ask "What did you say?" she repeated herself and I looked at her... "Oh okay well have a good day" and she leaves...
Later I tell Staff Sargent and Sargent and they said I'm a big disappointment... I told them well I have a woman, and they said well it doesn't hurt to at least get her number!
The next day.... Karen dumps me, hahaha. So now they rip on me all the time cus of it.
Apr. 17th, 2005 @ 04:05 pm
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| » A look at my life |
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I do no know why, today I just looked back, a long ways, my life from when I moved here and where I am now. I do not know what but maybe It's because I miss Karen and just wanna look at all the good times and hard times I've had in my past. But I'll get to my personal problems later down. Here is what a lot of my girl situations where like to my current stand point.
-8th Grade -9th Grade
I moved here and I look back on it. I was mad about Sarah Johnson haha. She was the first nice girl to me who paid attention to me, and I took it the wrong way being young I guess and I really started to like her a lot. Haha, jee such things no one ever knew. I made friends with Shane and Scott, they were my first buddies. Shane was a trouble maker and Scott was a introvert. They are to become my friends. I hung out with Shane a lot mostly in the beginning, between 8th and 9th grade with Danny Arnet, and Danny Hopinjans, and Katie. Shane and I got into trouble together sometimes. He would moon cars going past Frogtown Road, we would be on in the woods while they smoked weed, and drank, and I just chilled out. One time we made a larger bomb from Dry Ice and water with a 2-Liter bottle... we mixed the warm water with the dry ice... and topped it off "Hey Jason go push it over" as I hear the crackling" and then I walk towards it to hear the popping... I start stepping back really fast and "BOOM!" I fell back.
9th-10th grade
I get my first girlfriend my sophmore year. Anna Norton. I date her for 6 months and we never even kiss heh. funny eh? But that's alright, I spend time with her. She and her friend Tor hang out every single day, they're attached to the hip. We break up and it's hard on me, I still need to grow more. I love her singing, and he skin, and the fact she's into Cartoons. this is the time I become best buddies with Tucker and Josh, three is never a crowd with us. We do everything together and hang out all the time. One time Josh and I who goofed off in Algebra all the time we just talking and goofing off. the Teacher was writing on the bored, and then when she turns around Josh is curled up in a ball undernieth his desk. the teacher turns around and bust out laughing. We had good times every day.
10th-11th Grade
early 11th grade, soon after breaking up with Anna, a couple months later Aubrey comes into play. Aubrey talks to me online. she grabbed my SN from a friend of hers who was talking to me online. for no reason at all she IM'd me, one things leads to another and we end up going out. I get my first job working at Subway, pay sucks, Manager sucks, and well it's boring but it's my first job so it's exciting to me. Aubrey visits me at work, she falls in love with me. We're both 16 and in love (Go figure). My buddies and I are still in awesome friendship, still we can do everything together, they start taking up drinking a bit more, but I still don't drink. I DD for them all the time because they are my friends and I take care of them. We go to parties and meet lots of people. Drunk girls try to come on to me, I pretend to fart and tell them to leave me alone. Before Aubrey though, I meet Kristen from my friend Alena. She tries to set me up on a Blind Date. Kristen is really pretty, and very nice, she looks a lot like... a young Mandy Moore honostly. things don't work out but we become great friends, and I get adopted into her family as a son. Back forward, Aubrey and I break up and I get depressed and start talking to her friend Jackie. Aubrey starts to spiral down hill after she dumped me and dated another guy so soon after. I find out from her friends I was pretty much cheated on, and dumped for this douche. I'm torn deeply and painfully. but like I said I start going after Jackie. Jackie and I start going out, it's an odd way we meet, she comes to a party. School I still do horrible in school but that was expected by this point. Jackie and I work out alright but then she breaks up with me right before going to GSP. I'm not hurt too badly, because I wasn't nearly as attached. LAter on she gets back from GSP, and we hang out and once again she's on my arm, but I am not a man of second chances and I'm a lil cold to her. That's okay though we move on.
-Around this time-
my Mom and dad are going nuts. Mom becomes really really suicidal and starts to drink a lot. Dad cheated on her and mom and dad get a devorce. I spend many nights, even school nights staying up all night listening to my parents, hoping things are okay. Mom writes suicidal thoughts and about death and reads them to dad, and well it's a mess. I'm once again in a depressive mode where I hide it by making jokes and laughter.
11th Gradeish. Tuck now ask me if he can date Jackie... I say yea sure I guess. Not that it really mattered. I start falling in love with a Girl named Bethany... Long Brown hair, gorgerous eyes, and she's so sensitive. I ask her out three times and get turned down every time hahaha. Meanwhile yes Tuck is dating Jackie and I'm a lil upset about it, I start being a dick to Tuck. I make fun of him because his first girlfriend he had before Jackie... Well she would take him away from us. Tuck would spend time with his girlfriend all the time and dumped us his best friends. I wasn't so much upset that he was dating my ex-girlfriend now, as I was upset that he's ditching me for my Ex-girlfriend, I take it personaly because I already see the signs of him dumping his friends again. I asked totally jerkish with Josh as well "So Tuck, girl has you so whipped she's dressing you now too eh?" I remember saying as he was at his locker and dressed up. Josh busted out laughing. Tuck and I become more distant and now we're not even friends now. It didn't matter to me but it hurt a lot, I missed my friend. We start getting into fights. I get pretty depressed, that I get into my 'goofy depressed' state... where I start joking so much and laughing all the time to hide the depression, it's what I do every time I get depressed. One day while in a state of laughter I thought I'd jokenly go jump on Tuck's back in the middle of the halls. I just start sprinting forward for absolutly no reason and now insted of jumping I tackle him... I laugh and he laughs and I get up quickly while thinkg "I kinda wanna really hit him". However he totaly didn't expect me to ever tackle him so I guess it got some kinda point off even though I tried to play it off as a big goof joke. I date a lot of different girls in this time period, Sarah, Jenn, and one other girl I can't even remember her name, but none of them work out... they're more like 1 month dates and either I didn't feel it, or they didn't .
Danny dies. Car Accident, it's horrible, and his death can never be forgotten. Shane is there too, he is lucky to survive. Shane is cleaning up a lot more but still smoking weed and drinking... Shane even gets me to sneak out of my house on School nights to go to some of these Parties. I meet a lot of girls, and talk. Jared Schaddle is at one of these parties... aand we end up kinda cool, he offers me free beer even though I don't drink. The thing is only last year we got into a really big fight and he choked me... while choking me I picked him up from slammed him against the wall to get him off my back, then I slam him into the ground and start picking him up off the ground a few inchs and slamming him back over and over again... it's a long story in itself, I even give him a chance to leave me alone but he chokes me again so I twist his arm in such pain that his big football friend gets me into a choke hold... once again long story but we end up kinda cool.
12th Gradish/summer
I meet another Sarah, red hair, light skin, very energetic. She likes me a lot and as first I didn't think a ton about her... She warms up to me though, especialy since she refuses to be ignored, and I guess I like that. we start having fun together and well I learn a lot about kissing with her. it's a bit crazy. We break up later on... It's because I think I like her friend Jess, and... well I do, a lot. Sarah hurts, and I understand. I juggle, I can't tell who I like more, her or Jess, and it teater totters, I really like both and go out with both but can't decide, I only get to go out a few times with Jess but I'm nuts about her, but then things look grim with chances with her and I'm nuts about sarah again, or other way around... I'm really confused.
-Around this time-
Mom and dad are still having problems, dad has kept contact with the girl he cheated on my mother with and she finds out. Things heat up, drinking increases, mom has troubles. I've become more apart of the situation now, as I drive my mom who is often drunk around because she is so depressed. I try to take care of her. Dad gets depressed too.
I recieve my Black Belt in Taekwondo!
-More into the year I meet another girl, I'll just call her hmm Ellie. I'm nuts about her! absolutly nuts, she plays tenis and is down right gorgeous and so sweet. But the more I look into her I relize it seems like every relationship she has, she makes up problems for the relationship because she likes drama. I'm not a drama guy.
Later into the year, I meet Karen Chan. I've known her before, or well known of her. I start talking to her and she has a lot to say! But it's okay because well I love to Listen. I never believe I have much of a chance so I don't think of ever actually dating her. my friends make fun of me who have class with her and me. They tease me about how I think she is cute.... one thing leads to another and now I'm with her... I fall in love with her, it's nuts because I didn't think I'd see myself falling in love again, especially after being cheated on twice. I go to Bootcamp, I endure the hardest time of my life and she sticks to me! I come back and here I am... still in love with that same Lady, my Lady, my Woman. She's the beauty of my life, and all I hope is she never becomes a story of "what was" and stays with me and apart more of what we will become. I want her to be the only woman on my arm, and to be the only man she ever loves.
I'm really bored so I think I'll write small lil funny storis/mishaps too, so when I look back I can read when I'm ever depressed.
Oct. 31st, 2004 @ 12:44 am
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I've really been trying to live it up a lot before I ship out. I'm getting jittery every day like it's my last day. The more I worry about how everyone is gonna be better than me in Bootcamp, I relize there will be a lot of dipshits worse than me, which I think is going to be good modivation to get ever better, so they never catch up. I went to BW3's the other day and it was awesome, then I went to Dairy Queen and had my first Bananna split ever which taste really good. I made my own smoothies, hung out with really old friends with Shane. I ate a lot of White Castle Bacon cheese Jalapeno (SP?) burgers from there. Over all just trying to enjoy as muhc as I can, and hanging out with Karen as much as I can. We went to Kings Island yesterday and I tried to ride every ride I could. Best ride there was defently probably Flight of Fear. Which is funny because when I first went in to this long line I thought it was a crappy Video Roller coaster and I couldn't believe how long the wait was. But then I got there and I was like wow that's pretty hard core! I got on, and the thing boost you from 0-55ish in 2 seconds... it's quite a rush, after that it's still awesome because you're in the dark, and half the time you can't tell if you're upside down or right side up. it's great. Most rides I can brush my teeth on and smoke a cigar if I smoked, this one however did the trick of being a lot more fun. We also went on Drop Zone. I'll admit I almost kinda chickened out on the ride but KAren really wanted to go and I felt like a totally douche for letting her go alone. the problem was I've gotten stuck on a simliar ride in Kentucky Kingdom for 3 hours one night and it was terrible, you legs go numb and all that. Well we were on and nothing bad happened, and I was pretty calm, I threw my hands up while falling too and it was a pretty good rush but nothing big. I did get to ride my fav. roller coaster,. The Beast. it has the best drop in the park, and awesome views and it's long and it goes through the back of the park where it's surrounded by trees and stuff, it's really really cool, I highly recommend it.
Oh yea hah I played DDR a lot while at Kings Island, and Karen put up with me. The game is a totally blast because you're alwasy trying to beat yourself. I Double AA'd Spin the Disc Twice and I AA'd .59, which is a new accomplishment. I don't believe I could have done it though with out the really good DDR Machine being super loud. I loved out loud they where, and that's partialy why I was so addicted yesterday, because it was so loud and I wanted to take advantage of it as much as I could. Today is Friday. I wanna do something. I might be going to a Party with Shane but he wants me to drink and get drunk, and I pretty much refuse. I don't get to go to a lot of parties because I don't drink which really there is no reason to if I don't drink. but I miss out on a lot of friends and people because I don't drink, especialy girls. But now I got a girl so I'm pretty happy, and I never had to drink.
Jul. 23rd, 2004 @ 10:38 am
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I wouldn't say I'm scared. I don't know how to put it. It's something I want to do, but want to get over with at painlessly as possible. I'm nervous yea, it only gets closer and it's the hardest thing I'll do in my entire life. If I make it though I'll be a machine. It's hard, my girlfriend just got back and I only get to see her a little bit each day. I love her face. I stare at her eyes a lot, sometimes she catchs me but I don't know why they're just so amazing. her face is so pretty. She's the prettiest girl I've ever had and the sweetest, so I can not help but love her, but I'm going to be gone for 88 days... how is she going to be? how will I be? It's gonna be so hard.
I will not leave Paris Island without my Globe and Anchor. I will not leave untill I am a Marine.
I did meet Karen's parents and family. Her lil sister seems cool enough. her moth is really quite beautiful which is a good sign. If the mother is beautiful then the girl will grow older and stay beautiful too. I am lucky guy. Her dad didn't seem to talkative but tired even. her cousins were pretty cool. I donno if anyone liked me but well I wish her family did like me. If they liked me then I could spend more time with Karen because they know she was safe with me. However She is a girl so I could understand why they might not like a boyfriend much I guess.
Jul. 20th, 2004 @ 10:39 pm
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| » Democrats and Karen is home! |
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Anyone reading this needs to make sure to check out the link below about all the lies and deception Moore has put into his horrid movie.
If it's not enough I ran accross this awesome website. http://www.scaryjohnkerry.com/wmd.htm
Where they lieing then or now? It's amazing how Democrats are such hypocrits and don't make a real stand. They only stand on mud.
If it's not enough to piss one off, I over heared though I will not say what, something that made kind of sense. Democrats have elected Kerry for president because they know he is an idiot and will fail so that when Bush has to resign in 2008, the Female Clinton can have a way higher chance of making president. Also in a lil less off topic. I donno i anyone can back this up, but it would make a little sense. The Hillary use to be an active lesbian, in fact that the only reason she married was for Clinton could get into presidency. hahah if it's just a rumor it's at least funny, in fact they (vaguely I can not say who) believe they she may not even have Clinton as her last name in the Marriage papers. Oh the vague. If it's a moral issue of lesbianism anyway.
Alright I got it off my chest
Karen got back today. She got me this...well she got me a cool shirt and then she got me this little puppy dog thing, real small, can fit on a keychain if it had a keychain hook. small dog, light blue shirt with a lil light blue heart on it and a light blue hat. the Dog looks similar to a Shepard. And another one for her that's the same thing except it's pink and looks more girly cus it's the girl dog. anyway when you put them together the little magnets inside the hearts activate I guess and the female says "I love you" and you hear a big kiss, I think from the boy dog and then the girl dog's cheeks light up.
It's really girly haha but I really love it.
the shirt is pretty cool too, I feel bad I shoulda gotten her something.
Anyway the first time I see her today I was almost in shock... I didn't really have anything smooth to say and.. I didn't know what to think. There she is, where she has not been for 41 days... I donno how to act. I miss her so I ran up and hugged her and kissed her. We spent a couple hours together but it only seemed like a couple minutes. She was really tired of course coming from 12 hour difference so I felt bad for her but she managed to stay awake. Tomorrow however she's going with her family to get their green cards renewed. They're going early in the morning so hopefully I will get to see her. I really wanna go to Kings Island with her though but she said she might be too tired.. I really hope she's not since I'm going to boot camp and I wanna ride a roller coaster so bad before I go. I love Roller Coasters. Karen is like... my best friend but my girlfriend too. I can tell her anything, she's always loyal to me and doesn't mess around with any other guys, and very playful with me. I love playing which I won't get to do much of here soon.
Boot camp is only a week away. I am sad, I miss civilian life already but I want to be a Man and this will make me a Man. The cool thing is, Gunny is letting me take it easy physicaly! so I don't hurt myself before Bootcamp! hell ya, PT blows, so I'm enjoying a week of no PT till I have to PT three times a week while at Bootcamp. Oh well. Anyway I love my girlfriend.
Jul. 19th, 2004 @ 12:57 am
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I figure it's been awhile since I really described the feeling toward
my friends and how I feel I perceive them and how I feel they percieve
me and my thoughts. But before that.
There is this girl, she's really nice and she's a pretty girl, I've
been talking to her for a long time and been trying to get her hooked
up with a boyfriend who'd treat her right. she comes over and we
talk, and whatever. I sometimes feel she likes me so I keep
bringing up stories about my girlfriend, how I miss her and
stuff. I think she's got the idea I'm committed and love my
girlfriend and I don't think she means any harm in just talking to
me. mom thinks I'm gonna break her heart, but I assure her I feel
she just likes to talk, while dad jokes about that the girl is waiting
for my to break up with my girlfriend, which... will never happen of
coruse. I think the best cure for this is to get Zach to dump his
nasty ho bag skanky girlfriend so he can date this really sweet pretty
girl insted. I hate Megan, and this girl would go soooo much
better with Zach than Megan. man Megan pisses me off.
anyway...
so to my late friends lately.
Brice, Jack - Brother, so I include them together. they drink,
smoke lots of weed but over all, they're like brothers. they're
the most loving, down to earth guys ever who can accept anyone for who
they are and will take them under their wing. I feel that Jack
while being a loser, has much potential for being a great working guy
but he rather just lay around the house playing games all day and
smoking weed. And it only pisses me off because like I said he is
cable of great things. Brice however does make me believe he's gonna be
going somewhere and he's not as much of a weed addict as Jack.
not that it's addicting or anything, just saying. they both also
think that every single girl I seem to know is really hot.
Zach - We hang out more so lately. and we've know each other only maybe
6 months or so. HE's a good guy, I get the feeling he does
however look up to me, especialy since I'm going into the Marines and
he said there is just something about the way I act, that it's
something he wants but he doesn't know how to describe my
behavior. I don't know, what it is, but I don't really care
either, I'll just continue. I think he refers to how I talk to
girls and stuff though. Before Karen I talk to girls and get them
on the brink and them shut them down just to be an A-hole but at the
same time girls loved me at work because I was the sweet guy.
Anyway, Zach also plays DDR, not as good at me by a long shot but he's
as obsessed as I was.
Clark - Clark... man hard to believe it we still talk. Clark, is
a buddy of mine from back in...... well no one would actually
believe it, it's almost unbelievable honostly, but cool as well.
Back in 1996 I was.. 12 years old and in the 6th Grade. I played a Game called Warcraft II . Anyway
it was back in 1996 I played on Zone.com, the place to play at the
time. and my friend Ben at the time and I played and he met some
kid named Clark. for whatever reason we started to talk and
played Warcraft II together and later, we started playing Tetrinet as
well... an online version of tetris. Anyway we played an talk
clear up to the year 2000. For whatever reason (I believe his
interent went down) he stopped coming online. Time passed, and I
had completed high school as had he. a lot goes on through
Highschool and 4 years later in 2004 this year not only a month ago he
messaged me. A lot has changed, he's roughed around with light
drug use, drinking, got himself a great girlfriend and good friends and
we're talking again. he's an awesome guy, very easy to get along
with and we talk on the phone now more too. Phone cost is so much
cheapter now and internet use is practicly free. But it's really
cool to be talking to him again. In an odd wierd think, he is my
longest term friend ever. Because I moved so many times I don't
have very many old freinds. He is the only one that currently
talks to me reguraly that still knows a lot about my past. Only
one of my friends who knows that back in 1996 is when we started to use
ICQ because AIM didn't exist and ICQ was the main talk utiliaty at the
time. and the Zone.com and tetrinet and he knows about my website
back when I was a big time webmaster at the age of 14 and I got a ton
of hits and traggic on my site. anway 8 years later, we're still
playing Tetrinet and we're gonna try and play some Warcraft II some
time.
Shane - Shane and I are so much not a like but we get along.
Shane likes my ability to say whatever I feel without any remourse or
feeling of stupidty and caring. Shane likes me similar to a
brother kinda and I feel the same way, though however we don't drink or
smoke weed together... because welll I don't do those things but he
does. he is actually a lil dissapointed because he really wanted
to go partying with me and drink and get drunk together... but that's
just not my thing. Shane is the kind of guy I feel will be
watching my back in Boot camp and I will be watching his back as
well. I can trust him but at the same time I know he tells me a
ton of bull shit because I'm a gualable guy.
Scott - Scott was one of my first friends along with shane that I
met. He's a dork... more so than me and believe me I'm pretty up
there. Where I do things like play video games, he does it to a
point where he doesn't really feel like getting out and doing stuff..
which is exactly what I love to do, get out and do stuff. it's
cool though. Scott and I have some major differences and fight
over the stupidest stuff ever but yet we're good buddies. I blow
it off and some stuff he doesn't blow off he keeps just trying to start
and argument but I try and be the mature one and just try and blow it
off... example.
I am in the Marines
He is in the Army
While it's fact that the Marines are harder than the army, he didn't
admit it untill not too long ago. I talked to him and told him
that I had respect for him because he PT's 3 times a week for the next
4 years because he is in ROTC and will be in airborne school but the
fact was the Marines are harder than Army boys, but not nesscarly
Airborn , in fact they're equal... he seemed to accept it and admit it
that army was easier as far as Recruit training came.
I am the Xbox
He is the Gamecube
gayest thing ever to fight about but I promise we got in heated discusions about it.
I Like Rap
He likes Country Music and stupid music.
I only right stupid music because it's my journal and I'll laught at it
later though no one else will. Anyway we settle this because we
both like techno.
Danny - HE's a big guy, really big and he wants to lose weight.
He's been working out for awhile and has even lost 18 or so
pounds. Danny is a great guy. he's a smart ass, can say the
funnest shit without trying and the only people who don't like him, or
those who can not take his joking around. yes he is very immature
but because of certain parential problems, and the fact that he has to
live like such an adult and work so much, he deserves to act anyway he
wants when he's not around them. Be himself. He's a smart
ass, and that's the best part about him, but he's pretty down to earth
and will talk. I can not express how proud I am of him for losing
weight and continuing to try to lose weight. it's fat people who
don't do anythig that fcking piss me off.
I have a ton of friends, but these are the ones on my mind right now.
Jul. 16th, 2004 @ 01:59 am
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| » Updates, Girl, game, etc. |
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so I got this huge party going on July 24th, mom is being retarded with these cards she's so proud of that she made. and she wants to send em to everyone like it's a 5th grade birthday party and I was pissed off for awhile but whatever. So now I got all these people hopefully coming. should be fun, and I ask Karen to be kinda clingy to me because I did invite some rather flirty girls who will be coming and rather they know I'm taken in person by her as well as what I've told them about her, plus the guys will be impressed I got a girl on my arm.
I talked to my friend Tori today who I'm really proud of but she is really beautiful girl! anyway I really wish my buddy zach was single so I could hook them up. Made me relize how much I miss Karen.
I started playing this Star Wars Knights of the Republic game, very badass. I gave up on Serious Sam after getting it.
hmm, totally bored. really miss my chick. I don't know exactly why she likes a guy like me, but I do enjoy that fact that she does, and I love her company even more. I'm a total jerk though I swear. She goes out with a lot of guys while in Hong Kong, but the only guy I got upset over was that one Larwence guy, so I got a lil paranoid about the other guys especialy since she said that she didn't tell him she had a boyfriend till like the next day, but that's a total jerkish way to act. but I tried to without it, anyway now she's going out wth her ex-bf today, but I don't care really. She's loyal to me though I don't know why she's so good to me, but it's pretty cool, she's a rare jewl.
Jul. 7th, 2004 @ 03:27 am
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| » Taekwondo, Game, Joe Schmo 2, and so on. |
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Black Belt, I finally get it Thursday! They're gonna have a
really big cermony where I join the rest of the black belts and it's
really cool! I'll be the man of the hour!!!
But there is bad news.
I talked to Mr. Craven today when I went up to the acadamy. I
called him on my cell since he wasn't there. He told me the World
Tournament went very well, and there were a lot of trophies brought
back. It was a good day at the tournament! However Mr.
Caven was competing for the first time in a tournament as a black
belt! he sparred with a guy and he cut the guy's eye with a
kick!! ouch, he felt really bad about it and lost his aggressiveness
and came in third place. He could have had first if he beat the
guy but he felt terrible for cutting him.
Logan got totally screwed over at the tournament... He was tied in
weapons forms and the kid he went up against dropped his weapon twice
and didn't even pick the weapons up off the floor correctly!!!!!
and the judges of course gave the guy who dropped his weapons first
place!!!! WTF? What jerks. I bet the judges don't like
Master Templeton and didn't want our academy to get points. So
Logan came in second on Weapons.
Also Kenner Jr. was testing for his black belt at the same time I was
testing for mine, and I found out he failed his black belt
test!!! He didn't do the form correctly that Master Templeton
wanted him to do after she told him about two weeks in advanced he
better known the form. Master Templeton gave him more than two
weeks and told him he needs to know all forms to be a black belt... and
he had problems with Camo and Green, so she told him he would be tested
on CAmo and Green... you would think with that much head time, that he
would be practicing a lot!! But nope... so he failed and she told
him that when he test for his 2nd Degree black belt, he will have to do
Camo and Green forms Backwards. wow.
about Kenner Jr. Though, when he first came in, I was a camo belt and
he was a white belt. I thought he a pretty smart and good
kid. But since he's join these things like leadership club and
stuff he has seemed to get a very big ego, and slacked off...
He's in a lot of spot light now, like I use to be, but insted of being
humble under the spot light, he seems to feed off of it. He's
still a good kid, he just needs to focus more.
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So I've been bored lately and got Serious Sam 2. The game is
insain, honostly multiple people on the screen all trying to kill you,
it's a pretty fun game and the graphics arn't half bad!
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I've been watching Joe Schmo 2, I watched the first joe Schmo and this
one is just as good! There are two people who are on the show
that think they're on a reality TV show but it's all rigged. and
everyone on the show is an actor but two people.... ingrid and Tim.
Tim is awesome guy! very humble, a little ditzy, but still good
guy, he'll find out it's all fake at the end of the show of course, but
he seems to think it's all real so far. I kinda feel bad for the
guy sometimes cus he's such an average guy, but he's really nice and
good guy. he doesn't have as much personality and Matt did on the
original Joe Schmo but he still rules!
Ingrid, she's awesome too! when I first saw her I was like she
looks like a guy in make up, but as the show goes on you actually see
her face more and she's really quite pretty! she's VERY VERY
smart and knows the show must be fake! All the producers are
freaking out because she is finding out the show must be fake.
VERY smart woman, and I like her because she's so real, she's not
snobby or anything, she's very 'real' girl.
Show is awesome,and next episode there will be two actors from the first joe schmo coming on! it should be awesome!!!!
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Mom is having a party for me on the 24th of July for my going away. all my friends and family will be there. Mom wants beer there and seems to encourage it. I think mom wants to trust that there are people drinking more than her so she won't think she drinks too much but I don't want beer at my party really. but mom seems to want beer there. It upsets me kinda. Today I asked mom if she was okay by accident because I could smell alcohol on her breath, and she said yea 'why?' I got really nervous and was like "n-n-nothing, nothing, nothing" I don't wanna ask mom if she was drinking, she'd yell at me. oh well.
Jun. 29th, 2004 @ 12:05 am
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